It's now or never
Come hold me tight
Kiss me my darling
Be mine tonight
Tomorrow will be too late
It's now or never
My heart was captured
My soul surrendered

Best Friends

Ki-'mo'-berly & Kyla-'Mo-'aree

L...

I miss you right now

I wish you were here

I want you to come over

But I will have to come to you

And I dont really mind

I want to take pictures with you tonight

If you dont mind

...

"...you cant ascribe great cosmic significance to a single earthly event. Coincidence.  That's all anything ever is. Nothing more than coincidence. There are no miracles. There is no such thing as fate. Nothing is 'meant to be' " - Narrator (500 Days Of Summer)

I personally don't believe this.

I've been watching 500 Days Of Summer a lot in the last few days... 

Tom just had to meet Summer, so she could open his eyes and mind to the fact that 'finding happiness' doesnt rely on others ie The One.

I do believe that somethings are meant to be... 

I do believe in soul mates. 

People meet for a reason, good or bad. 

To teach us lessons, to demonstrate how we should and shouldn't act. 

To show how to treat others - how we would like to be treated.

To tutor us in love and loss...

I'm not sure if I believe in "miracles"

I guess it's because I've yet to witness/experience one... But then again I am only young.

I do hope I get to experience one...

May twenty-third was a Wednesday...

...you cant ascribe great cosmic significance to a single earthly event.

Coincidence. 

That's all anything ever is.

Nothing more than coincidence.

There are no miracles.

There is no such thing as fate.

Nothing is 'meant to be'...

and oh - whoa oh

she can taste the success

she can hold it in her hands

and poke at it with her fingers

and oh - whoa oh

she can do it this time because he deserves it

my words stop at my fingertips, they quiver and they shake, what I yearn to say wont be taken the right way...I write it over and over and over again, I just cant type it and press send... it would be easier if certain people knew about that part of my life, but they dont, they wont, and I really don't think I want them to.. not yet. So I keep my words in the draft folder where they sit and wait to be released...maybe one day they will be set free...

...

With The Lights On::

Yes L, This IS your Girlfriend..Lucky you huh ;p

....

....
Today I didn't say,

"I like you too"

only because I know you already knew...

There is a better world... there must be...

Sing me to sleep.

Sing me to sleep.

Im tired.

 

...

Owl slumped against the rotting door frame; splinters fell to the stone ground as they broke under his weight. His heavy sigh carried through the darkness and rebounded back to meet him off the walls hidden in the night, reassuring the young man that he was finally alone. He had no idea what time it was and out of habit he quickly glanced down at the aged face and the rusted hands of the watch he wore around his slender wrist. It had broken months ago, but he could not afford a new one, or even a repair. Owl was exhausted, he had started long before the sun rise and had worked late into the night.

He let his head hang forward, long blonde strands of fringe curtained his vision before he closed his eyes and sighed again. He revelled in the silence for a long moment and welcomed the cool air of the night as it prickled at his pale flesh, goose-bumbs spread across his bare arms and legs. His heart felt heavy in his chest as his mind cleared of all else besides the sky. The great open unknown that lay outside the confines of The Cage; it called to him and beckoned he come to it. He lusted for nothing more, to feel a cloud sweep through his long hair and to taste the morning air before it fell to the earth below. His heart began to race as his mind carried him away; far away.

  Owl slid further down the frame, the wood groaned under the pressure. He sat on the cold stone with his knees pulled up to his chest with his delicate arms wrapped around himself, as if simply making himself smaller would make it easier to escape. He slipped into a deep slumber moments later, and in his dreams he took flight, never to return...

Ok I'll admit it

L is for Lachlan

L is for Lion

L is for Laughter

L is for Lust

L is for ❤

 

 

And the music through the walls fuled my imagination and stirred my elation. 

If life had a soundtrack, the moment where you held me in your arms and I watched as you slept the day away would be accompanied by that bass again; like your heart pounding in my ears. The sweet symphony of our sleepy kisses would follow in a power ballad rift that would echo through the night and stir an emotion that none other than you could settle within me. Your eyes, they'll sing the melody and perice through the armor I had worn for so long, and tear down the walls of the place I'd called home...

こっちに来てください。こっちに来てください。こっちに来てください。こっちに来てください。

Hey L
I have a secret I would like to share.
Do you remember when you asked me to go to the book festival with you?
Of course you do.
Well when I asked you if you couldn't find anyone else to go with and thats why you asked me to come with you and you said "lol no iv got other people coming too" well I was disappointed it wasn't just going to be the two of us... And then as it just so happens.. It did just end up being us and I was so happy... I really loved that day with you and every other day I've spent with you since.
Just thought I would let you know...
Can't wait to see you tomorrow night
Xoxox

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Throughout life you will meet one person who is unlike any other. 
You could talk to this person for hours and never get bored.
You could tell them things and they won’t judge you.
This person is your soul mate.
Your best friend.
Don’t ever let them go.

Alive33

And ooh I like how you make me feel I wanna do this right Don't wanna waste this night But I'm drowning Drowning in your love Bring me flowers And talk for hours And ooh I like you And ooh I like how you make me feel Kiss my face Your warm embrace And ooh I like you And ooh I like how you make me feel I'm a little scared to hold you closer Cause I just might never ever let you go Caught up in your smile I'm happy as a child But I'm still drowning Drowning in your love Bring me flowers And talk for hours And ooh I like you And ooh I like how you make me feel Kiss my face Your warm embrace And ooh I like you And ooh I like how you make me feel Oh, your heart cares for nothing in return And I'm just taking;  taking you in Caught up in your smile I'm happy as a child But I'm still drowning

We're Out Of Coffee!!!

Oh, the quiet silence defines our misery.

The riot inside keeps trying to visit me.

 No matter how we try, it's too much history.

Too many bad notes playing in our symphony.

So let it breathe, let it fly, let it go.

Let it fall, let it crash, burn slow.

goodbye.

I love that I can make you feel that way

when you want to be alone

but want me to stay

I CANT SLEEP I NEED YOU

So I made a little fort out of my pillows and disappeared for the night...

This dream was terrible, it made me appreciate you all the more

...
I was hanging out with some people that had faces of other people I know from real life all joined into one to create a single face/person..
But I could still sense the people that the faces were made up of, so I felt so overwhelmed and surrounded.
The place they took me was a huge skating ring, derby style even...
Reguardless of where I was, you werent there. In this place I don't you even existed...
thats why it was it was so cold..
I was back to where I was only a few months ago, lonely and starved for love and attention. I can't remember all of what happened but I was with this guy, we were having fun, drinking and laughing.
I was convinced he liked me.
Then he took me somewhere dark to have 'more fun'.
His face was twisted, and kept changing into people I know from the past, some male and some female..
He hurt me, I felt empty and hollow and I did not enjoy myself one bit.
The darkness was so heavy, like a weight on my shoulders...
I couldnt breath.
The next moment, he looks at me and insults my intellegence, my body, basically everything I am.
I woke up and I was sad for a long moment, still caught in the emptiness that guy left me in and then I just smiled.
I dont have to worry about things like that anymore... I dont have to care if some random doesnt like me or appreciate me for how/who I am.
Because you do.
You're the only person in this world whose opinion matters to me...
And you seem to think Im worth the time of day so I must be ok :)

For I am without fear, now that you are here

The moment its plastered in my mind.
The first time I decided that I would give it a try.
The times after that well there's been plenty.
The reasons are obvious and Id rather forget.
The time now has been over a year.
The pathetic thing is I'm still no where near.
The way I have gone, I know it is wrong.
The truth is I don't know who'd I'd be without it.
The questions that plague me, are always the same.
The answers are clear for others but to me their insane.
The countless times I have given up hope.
The endless amount of shimmering doubt.
The end has to be now.
The time has come to go to war.
The battle between myself and I will surely be a sight.
The victor shall bask in the glow of the light.
The light that will either set me free or imprison me eternally.

ｂｒｅａｔｈｅ ａｎｄ ｉｌｌ ｃａｒｒｙ ｙｏｕ ｉｎｔｏ ｔｈｅ ｖｅｌｖｅｔ ｓｋｙ ａｎｄ ｗｅ'ｌｌ ｓｔｉｒ ｔｈｅ ｓｔａｒｓ ａｒｏｕｎｄ ａｎｄ ｗａｔｃｈ ｔｈｅｍ ｆａｌｌ ａｗａｙ

"All that matters in a relationship is that you like the same pizza toppings"

-Daria

Keeping me awake, It's been like this now for days. My head all over the place. I'm losing sense of time,  We're like noughts and crosses in that, Opposites always attract. Am i keeping you awake? If i am then just say. You can make your own decisions; you can make your own mistakes. I'll live and let die all the promises you made. We're like noughts and crosses in that, Opposites always attract. You always have your way, For now it's too soon for you to say, Will we be always, always?

I Worry That I May Be A Little Too Much Sometimes.

Maybe A Little Clingy.

But For Some Reason, I'm Not Afraid To Say/Write All The Things I Do To You.

Because I Just Want You To Know.

To Feel Special.

Loved.

You're The Only Person I've Never Lied To.

Really, You Are.

So Why Should I Start To Lie Now And Hide How I Feel About You?

That's Just What I Think...

THYSELF thy FOE;

to THY sweet SELF too CRUEL

Dinner Tonight: doesnt look pretty but tasted ah-mazin

mushrooms&capsicum&avocado&egg plant&cucumber

and there's left overs! Yay!

For its too soon for you to say we'll be always...

I can only remember a few bits and pieces of what happened last night... I remember planting my face into the floor...falling into the bath tub and L helping me up...throwing up through my nose... I remember everything spinning...I was so out of control... I hated it.

I also remember L holding my head up, his hands cupped around my face, and, though its blurred, I can see his eyes and that smile, and I dont feel so awful any more.

That smile is ridiculous. Its not fair how much it can affect me.

I'm so grumpy almost most of the time and then within a second of being with him, or around him, I just feel better. Lighter. Happy.

Its been so long since I've felt relatively good about myself, but these days I've been feeling fine... Its all thanks to L.

If your reading this L, you'll never fully understand how happy you make me.. how much you've helped me and how amazing you are... you never will. I so, so, so, so, long to make you feel the way you make me feel... I really hope that one day I can...

Thank you again so much for taking care of me last night.

You really are the best.

Just go kill yourself already. you obviously don't want to be here and no one wants you here either so do us all a favour and end it now. K thanks Hun